Faces of Beauty
On my lunch break I read about Faces of Beauty on Heathers blog. The Dove video she posted was very moving to me. I wanted to take part in this venture and I am glad I did. It already has taught me a lesson . . .
When I got home from work I took all of my makeup off, made sure my hair was as desheveld as it was all day,and started snapping pictures of my face. This was my inner dialogue while flipping through them and trying to choose.
“The first one . . . Err, the lighting was wrong. . . Hm, this one makes my teeth look even more yellow . . . And that one there makes my face look fat, wow . . . this one makes my complexion look spotty . . . Oh, can’t have that one on there . . . . it showcases my one lone dimple”
I must have taken 20 or 30 pictures and I was not satisfied with any of them. No matter what angle I took it from, or what background or lighting I chose . . . . I still found something ‘wrong’ with the pictures.
I took a break and laid on my bed to write my blurb about why I thought I was beautiful . . . ironic huh? When I truly asked myself what I thought beauty was, the word REAL came to my head. I think that beauty is being able to be your real true self no matter what. So, how could i honestly believe that when I couldn’t see it in myself?
At that moment, I picked up the camera and snapped a picture of myself right then and there. Sure, my teeth are crooked and my skin isn’t glowing and I’m sure that the media wouldn’t accept this picture of me as beautiful . . . But this is me . . . .RIGHT NOW . . . REAL AND RAW. I am not pretending in this picture and I don’t have any regrets . . . And ironically, out of all the pictures I took that night, this was the one i thought was beautiful.
Don’t get me wrong, i think being pretty and getting all dolled up has its time and place, but I know for sure that being that way all of the time is just absolutely not what happens in the real world. When I see women in public, or when i am reading blogs . . . I enjoy seeing everyone doing things just the way they are. Whether they are just coming back from a workout, or just finished dinner at a fancy schmancy restaurant. Real people with real faces doing real things.
With that I am going to take a leap of faith. I am going to BE what I want to SEE more of. For now on, whenever I post a picture of myself, I promise that it will be the first shot. No editing, no fancy angles (unless of course it is a fancy shot) and most of all no judging them when I look at them which to me, will be the hardest part. I realize that some pictures won’t be flattering or traditionally ‘beautiful’ but this is a risk I am willing to take. This is what being real is all about right?
I’m going to leave this post with some of the images that I took that weren’t ‘good enough’. The very last one is the one I chose to send to Heather and hopefully I will be posted soon. In the meantime, please check out other Faces of Beauty and if your daring enough . . . Join the movement!