you were right.
its officially been a bit over 2 months since making my journey to this island floating in the pacific. before I left, I told you that I was coming out here for ~3 months to push the reset button so I had a more clear cut idea of what I wanted to do when I got back to jersey. 99% of you told me that I probably wouldn’t come home. the other 1% was myself telling you all that I PROMISE ill be coming home and that this was just some crazy thing I decided to do.
well, you all were right . . .
now that im here and opened so many doors, met great people and had some incredible experiences, I really don’t see the point in shutting everything out in order to go back home where life has a cozy, comfortable safeness halo around it . . . or so I would think.
in all honesty, back home I would be dealing with much of the same struggles than I am dealing with here. its not like I have a gold paved path layed out for me with a perfect life. id still have to work really hard to make it.
aaaaand id rather do that here . . .
can you blame me?
even though I am deciding to stay, I don’t know how long that means for me. there are a lot of financial issues I need to take care of as well as some things back home which will definitely require a visit this summer (hopefully). I do know that beginning in april, I will be signing a lease to my new cozy little studio rental I found for 4 months at the very least and I must work my ass off for it.
I admit, as confident as ive become out here . . . im scared shitless of the future. ive never lived completely by myself before and to do that and get my bearings all over again in the most popular city in all of hawaii (honolulu) is going to be incredibly challenging and pretty lonely!
but, such is the life of a trapeze artist . . .
I do promise to blog more and also to really take charge in turning myself into a brand like I planned to with private chef jobs, my t-shirt line, my blogs/website and eventually I would love to own a healthy food truck!
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and here is the boring part of the post where I let you know how I did on last months goals!
Finish Pineapple Shirt Design – I havent even clicked open illustrator to play around with this design. luckily, this can be done on my own time and damnit that time is now!! I WILL finish this design by April 1st so that its ready for screen printing. I think it would be awesome to use this venue as a way to make extra $, especially with all the farmers markets out here! I think this business has much more potential here than home . . . wtf am I waiting for?!?!
Explore More Of The Island – I havent as much as I would like to still but I did get to visit a few beaches, the aloha tower and obviously the concert venue where I will be doing most of my catering work. im getting all the major touristy things finished but would love to see the off the grid local spots. there is still SO much to see and I cant wait to tear it all up!
Have My First Surfing Lesson – DONE! Marc was kind enough to give Nicole and I our first surfing lesson while we were out here. I thought it was going to take lots and lots of practice to stand on the board but by the end we both rode at least one wave in one form or another. such an awesome feeling too. im excited to dive deeper into this hobby and will start looking for the perfect longboard real soon.
Launch New Blog Design – never happened, but I have a good amount of the groundwork finished.
Find Another Part-Time Gig – its hard to find something when I don’t exactly know where ill be living. my goal is to move into honolulu where all the work is. once I know where I am and what will be in walking/biking distance, im sure I can find something that will bring in money, be flexible around shows and also up my cooking experience. I also would like it to be more full time than part time.
Drop Some Weight By Eating Intuitively & Increasing Activity – HA! this pretty much went out the window during the Neil Diamond show. its always a sick joke working around food all day and not getting the chance to really eat it. with all of the amazing things we had it was hard for me to stay healthy and intuitive and fueled for the long days. that plus no sleep and living on coffee and energy drinks really knocked me down. my fault, though.
Go On A Date – through all the craziness, I did manage to go on an awesome date (or 3) with someone who can handle my twisted sense of humor . .. you all know that says a lot *smile*
Strength Training 3x Per Week – NOOOOPE! unless you count lifting heavy coolers and carrying bags of ice?
Cardio 4x Per Week – NOOOOOPE X2 I was very active but I also ate up any calorie deficit I may have had. lesson learned
1-2 Meals Out – I’ve definitely made this goal. for the show week ate all my (free) meals there. I also brought home leftovers mostly every night which I lived off of the next week. other than that, ive been cooking at the house and eating what I buy. food really is expensive here and once I move out on my own, im excited to come up with a plan to eat at home and yet still enjoy the hawaii hole in the wall food places.
Participate In Blog-land – honestly, this was the furthest from my mind. I came back to over 360+ posts in my reader and I could only stomach reading a small percentage of them. I get that you have big things going on in your life but I am just not interested in your wedding or your pregnancy . . . like, at all. *snore*
3 Bottles Of Water – ive been so dehydrated this month and once again, its totally my fault. I always drink one cup of coffee in the morning but now ive adopted the hawaiian obsession with energy drinks. I know, its terrible but I really like the taste.
Only Eat When Seated – *laughs*
Journal – no journaling this month
Quality Meals – cant say ive done good here either but for every time I don’t, I realize how important it is . . . especially when your busting your ass!
much love and mahalo!